Sunday, May 17, 2009

dang it! i'm so bad at posting!
it's been weeks!..but hiya!

side note- i realized lately that i use exclamation points, alll the time. after practically every tweet or text there is an exclamation point and a smiley face.. i guess that's how i add my emphasis or i'm just apparently always over-excited, who knew?

but enough with my little extra, i actually have stuff to say!

lots of things have been going on including weeks where there is a birthday every day, as well as celebrating moms and their fantastic mother-lives, my sketchy beach hotel experience with Amad, raising more money and collecting tons more shoes for Afife and i have even seen 2 movies since and went to ikea since we last spoke. great news, i know! but enough with filling you in, i got stuff to say!

i have recently, as in thursday, discovered more of who i am. remember how i did that whole personality test thing and was complaining because i didn't really think it described me, bla bla bla, welll, i found out, i read the wrong personality description! and thursday i found mine, and i'm still amazed, seriously it's me on paper. anyway, i have decided or i guess it kinda just happened, that i want to embrace the good aspects of what the paper said. i mean, good moods they're so infectious and they make you feel good. so that's the new wave i'm ridin. it's real nice. i feel refreshed!

oh yeah! i almost forgot
i have also re-discovered jimmy eat world

yep, i'm swept off my feet all over again

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i implore you to try one of these tastey slices of heaven, they're my currently at the top of my chart.. and for all you weight watchers, they're reduced fat! baha

pss- one of the movies i saw was star trek, and i know it sounds really lame, but i loved it, and am itchin to see it again..

side note- has anyone noticed how good movie trailers are getting?! i want to see practically everything coming out in the near future.. which isn't a-ok, because now, since my brother got the ax, i have to actually pay to go to the movies.. and 9.50 to see a movie, ouch!

psss- i FINALLY made mini key lime pies with hannah & michelle!

Saturday, May 9, 2009

quite the dilemma

trying to figure out what to buy your best friend for her birthday is tough,
especially when you're low in the funds
and they deserve the world
i need a tutorial on how to get rich.

ps- it's that time again, paper writing time, and in about an hour and a half i have successfully racked up 976 words, impressive if i do say so myself.

pss- i love high heels, it's a shame i can't walk in them

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

me, stressed out? nooo

stressed out, burnt out, exhausted in every sense of the word
..yep, that's how i'm feelin

see, my mother, my beautiful mother, she's enough to stress anyone out.
in november she began a 1-year, intense, 20 grand, nursing program to become an RN.
sounds pretty ideal for a mom supporting 2 kids & herself, who doesn't have that kind of money, who can only work 2 days a week (if that), and on top of that is already overly stressed, anxious, and hasn't been in school in about 10 years.. right?

nonetheless, i'm a believer, and when my mom puts her mind to whatever, she can do it. i have no doubt. so of course i was her biggest cheerleader for the school. but all this school has done is stress her out beyond what she can bear, it's depressed her, stressed her, stretched her, and as of today is has officially defeated her. she failed her two classes, one by .2 (69.8), and the other by 1 (69).

it sucks, she was so close, and now she's on a downward spiral. i just want to wisk her away, take her to the beach, let her have a long, relaxing vacation, with no obligations, you know stress-free
because i mean there is good news, she already found another school she could enroll in, meaning with one door closing, another is already open... but still it's so hard. and she's so upset and down on herself. if only she believed in her like i do, if only she saw the potential i know she has.
plus i know she can't help but think about the whole 10,000 bucks down the drain, which blows! and i dunno i feel like i just failed or something, like i didn't pray hard enough, or like i should have studied more with her.. it's exhausting me, and getting to me.

i have this issue, where i want to fix everything, make everything better, and when i can't i'm really hard on myself, to the point i get stressed out, upset, and exhausted. hence, where i'm at now.
but enough with my pity party!

..speaking of parties, how many freaky deaky birthdays can be in one month?!?!
and each one is after more and more of my wallet..
BUT my 2 bundles of joy/best friends' birthdays are this within 5 days of each other's and boy, are we gonna celebrate! 18 & 19, such crucial years.
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..i'm ready for the weekend, clearwater here i come!

ps- my brother is cooking me steak, mashed potatoes, and asparagus for dinner tonight, yum! oh the perks of having a twin brother who loves me.

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i want to bake these sooo bad!!!