i'm a "why" kind of girl

good news.. i'm back!
i'm kind of overwhelmed to really say all too much, but i'm gonna try, because i've got loads of good stuff rolling around in this head of mine, and good stuff just shouldn't go to waste, right?!


so, you may or may not have figured this out about me, but i'm a "why" kind of girl. you know i'm one of those.. one of those girls who always has her hand raised, asks questions during movies, the whole sha-bang. i mean, i can't help it, i'm extremely curious...i blame my mother.

anyways, so in me being a "why" kind of girl, i find myself having about 1,000 different questions going on in my head, at the same time mind you! but these puppies, they're questions that even i can't have answered, well, not exactly.

let me explain, it's Easter. so of course gettin my holy-iday on, you know i'm commemorating the fact that Jesus is alive and i'm celebrating in the abundant love he has so freely given us and also the living, breathing relationships we have gotten to thrust ourselves into with Him. (ftw!)
and as i'm celebrating, the questions start popping in my head, kind of like those games at chuck-e-cheese with the little heads that pop up that you hit with the mallot.. i mean why did God decide love us? he doesn't need us. he didn't even have to love us. we're not perfect, we're anything but perfect. simply put, we suck, and yes, i'm gonna be blunt about it, because it's true! we hurt him, we rebuke him, we want him only when it's convenient to our schedules, we're mean, we're liars, we're unfaithful, we lack commitment and faith, we're hypocrites, we're fake, we're materialistic. yet, despite all of that, he sent his one and only son to pay the penalty for all our sins, to die the most excruciating death for us, for you and me, and he didn't even have to, but he did.
see, that's what i don't get! it blows my mind. why me? why us? how did we get so lucky? why are we so blessed? ..in my eyes, we've all hit jackpot, we've all won the lottery, we've got it made! i mean, God's perfect, he's the cream of the crop, shoot, he's the beginning and the end, and yet he still wants me? he still wants you? ..he wants us so bad, his heart desires us so much, that he wants us to spend eternity with him. see, he doesn't just to chill with us for a day, or a couple months, but he wants us forever, and you know, that's a pretty long time..
he sets aside and forgives all our bad and sees us a way we don't see ourselves. he looks past all our shame and sin, and sees us as the beautiful creations he so intricately designed. he calls us his sons and his daughters, he's known us and loved us since before we were even born!
..i'm completely amazed. i'm so blessed. we're so blessed. dude! God is good. that's all i gotta say.

oh and-

Colossians 3: 12-14 So, chosen by God for this new life of love, dress in the wardrobe God picked out for you: compassion, kindness, humility, quiet strength, discipline. Be even-tempered, content with second place, quick to forgive an offense. Forgive as quickly and completely as the Master forgave you. And regardless of what else you put on, wear love. It's your basic, all-purpose garment. Never be without it.

one more thing-
Jesus Culture - (2007) 2 Your Love is Everything